
Yet another inconvenience of being ill is that I missed Bath Spa University's writer-in-residence Marcus Sedgwick's lecture in college yesterday. When speaking about his book 'My Swordhand is Singing', Marcus apparently said that 'everyone should write a vampire novel'. Well this recommendation lifted me right out of my pity party, because for once I am ahead of schedule: I have already written a book about vampires! It's a picture book called 'Vera the Vegetarian Vampire' about a vampire who just doesn't fit in.
Fitting in is something I've been thinking a lot about lately. I, like so many others, have been enjoying the programme 'Glee'. Its appeal for my friends and I seems to be the fact that the under-represented literally have centre-stage. Is there anyone who does not relate to feeling marginalised in some way, especially as a teenager?
I remember a couple of years ago sitting beside one of the 'popular girls' from my secondary school at a Leonard Cohen concert by chance. She said that she envied me growing up because unlike her I had true friends and that her school days were the worst of her life. At first I assumed she had me mixed up with someone else but as she continued I realised a) she was actually speaking about me and b) no one feels like they fit in as teenagers.
It made me feel pretty good about myself as I sat back and listened to Leonard. Until he sang 'Bird on a Wire' and I realised how much my identity is wrapped-up in being an outsider. I've had a lot of freedom by not conforming. This other girl's view of my formative years flipped my self-image on its head. Perhaps I wasn't quite as unconventional as I'd thought. Shush! Don't tell anyone!
Fitting in is something I've been thinking a lot about lately. I, like so many others, have been enjoying the programme 'Glee'. Its appeal for my friends and I seems to be the fact that the under-represented literally have centre-stage. Is there anyone who does not relate to feeling marginalised in some way, especially as a teenager?
I remember a couple of years ago sitting beside one of the 'popular girls' from my secondary school at a Leonard Cohen concert by chance. She said that she envied me growing up because unlike her I had true friends and that her school days were the worst of her life. At first I assumed she had me mixed up with someone else but as she continued I realised a) she was actually speaking about me and b) no one feels like they fit in as teenagers.
It made me feel pretty good about myself as I sat back and listened to Leonard. Until he sang 'Bird on a Wire' and I realised how much my identity is wrapped-up in being an outsider. I've had a lot of freedom by not conforming. This other girl's view of my formative years flipped my self-image on its head. Perhaps I wasn't quite as unconventional as I'd thought. Shush! Don't tell anyone!

